This Mother’s Day, Just Leave Me Alone

Aaron asked me last week what I wanted for Mother’s Day. I tried to convince him that the Vera Bradley purse I just bought should count for a gift, but he wasn’t having it.

I know, this is the ideal time to beg for that new gadget or gizmo, when I can say, “But look at how much I do – don’t I deserve it?” But honestly, I really don’t need a gift to show appreciation for the hard work I do as a mother.

I could be rewarded just as much by being left alone. I don’t mean I want the kids to disappear for the day, but I would love it if just for one day, I didn’t have to:

– swipe some small object out of Mira’s mouth before she swallows it (where does she find this stuff?)

– yell at Cordy to “Stop hugging your sister like that! Hugging is nice, but knocking her over from the force of your hug is NOT nice!”

– answer the whisper of “Mommy, I’m stinky.”

– pick the couch pillow up off the floor 100 times a day

– yet again remove carpet fuzz from Mira’s hand before she tries to eat it

– deal with the whine of “I’m hungry!” ten minutes after Cordy stuffed herself with a large lunch

– have my mouse pulled away from me yet again by a baby with an electronics fetish

– play the mind-numbingly dull game of crawl up the stairs then demand to go to the bottom and do it again

– spend an hour trying to find “the green buzzy-bee” Cordy has lost and won’t stop talking about, only to realize it was a toy from school and she knew that it was still at school

– erase Mira’s contribution of letters and numbers from my most recent post

– retrieve spoons from the trash after Cordy tries to help me clean up lunch

I normally do all of these without complaint. After all, they’re my girls and they need me. But I can’t say the thought of them not bugging me for a little while is an unwanted dream.

Surely I’m not the only one who wishes her kids would stop doing specific behaviors for just one day. What do you wish your kids would not do just for one day?

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This post is part of the Johnson’s Baby Cause blog blast from Parent Bloggers. Johnson’s Baby Cause is working to raise money for several charities that promote the health and well-being of mothers and children around the world.



Did You See The "Mommy Bloggers" On The Today Show?

Yes, with air quotes.

If you haven’t seen the video yet, go watch it before reading further.

So what are my thoughts on it? Well, it was OK. The taped segment with Mir, Kristen and Jill was a good segment, although I felt like something was missing. In talking with Mir and Kristen on Twitter, I learned that the topic of community was brought up more in that interview, but was edited out, along with the sentiment that much of what we blog can be seen as a love letter to our children. It seems that Today wanted to focus more on the financial and moral aspects of being a mommyblogger this time.

Each of these issues has been featured on mainstream media before. Good Morning America spoke with Susan Wagner about making money online, and who can forget the Today Show feature on cocktail playdates. This time, questions seemed to be focused on the effect of corporate America’s new attention towards mom bloggers and issues of privacy in blogging about our children and families.

Mir, Kristen and Jill couldn’t have done a better job with the questions they were given. Kristen’s infamous duck came back to haunt her, but at no point in the interview did any of them look uncomfortable with the discussion.

Following that taped segment, Kathie Lee Gifford then did a live interview with Heather Armstrong (aka Dooce). Again, Heather did a great job with the questions she was given, but I felt the interview was doomed from the start when Kathie Lee said that she didn’t understand computers. Soon it was clear that Heather was being put on the defensive because she writes about personal issues in a forum where anyone can read.

At one point Kathie Lee said, “You seem like a lovely lady….BUT…” and while the “but” was sugar coated, the underlying message was that she disapproved of Heather posting intimate details and pictures of her daughter on the internet. Before Heather had a chance to answer, she was cut off for an introduction to the next segment. (And let’s not even get started on how Kathie Lee talked about her kids on TV on a near daily basis when she was with Regis. How is that different?)

I wondered what the Today Show expected its viewers to take away from this segment. Did they want them all to rush out and start mommy blogs, because clearly there was money to be made from it? Or were they trying to caution moms against exploiting their children and opening them up to stalkers by blogging about them? The messages seemed contradictory to me, not unlike the old dichotomy of “Women should have equal rights! Get out there and work! Oh wait, you’re going to be a mom? How can you abandon your child by working? You should be at home!”

I’m already tired of the privacy concerns thrown at mom bloggers. Do you seriously think that we didn’t consider privacy when we first blogged about our children? Yes, anyone can come by and see pictures of my daughters. But any stranger could also see them (live! and in person!) if we were walking down the street, shopping at the grocery store, visiting an amusement park, etc. Stalkers aren’t exclusive to the internet – they live in communities, too. And it’s not like all of the internet comes past my blog daily. The handful of visitors I get here each week is less than the number of people who would see them if we went to a concert.

As for the issue of future embarrassment over what I write about them, I also have thought about that topic. As the girls get older, I will give them more privacy, and stop the minute they ask me to. I already blog less about Cordy’s daily life than when she was younger. I have limits on what topics I’ll blog about – for example, I’ve said Cordy is not potty trained, but you won’t be reading the finer details of how potty training is going. And really, they’re going to be embarrassed by me for far more relevant reasons when they’re teens – this is minor compared to your average teenage angst topics.

There will always be aspects of my daughters that readers will never know about. Some of it I can’t find words for, and other parts I selfishly hold close. I love sharing my story – and as a result, their stories – with those who come into my blogosphere, but some of their unique characteristics are just for me and those who are close to us to share. No matter how much you read about them, I guarantee you that you would still be surprised about aspects of their personalities were you to meet them in person. The same could be said about me, or most any other blogger, I’d imagine.

While the entire segment wasn’t a train wreck, it still lacked a lot of information. I’m saddened that the entire aspect of community was glossed over. Listen, I doubt there are many moms out there who start blogging because they want to make a ton of money, gain power with corporations, or find new ways to exploit their kids and guarantee future embarrassment. Most of us do it for the community. We seek out other moms who we can identify with, sharing our stories, gaining knowledge from those who have been through what we’re going through, or just providing support for others when they need it.

There aren’t a lot of new moms in my neighborhood. And most people here keep to themselves, so making mom friends isn’t easy. But I can count several moms that I met online as friends. We may not live in the same state, and we may have never met in person, but we have a common experience that ties us together.

I wrote in the comments of another blog yesterday that if I was forced to give up blogging tomorrow – completely quit posting, reading, commenting, everything – I might miss the product promotions and giveaways, and I might miss the little bit of ad revenue I make each month. But not being able to participate in the community, to laugh and cry and commiserate along with friends – friends I made not because we live in the same area, are in the same socioeconomic group, or look similar, but friends I made because of our words alone – would be devastating to me.

You’re all my people. My community. That’s why I keep doing this. And I hope that my daughters will someday read these ramblings and have a new appreciation and understanding of their mother, along with an account of days they can’t remember. The money, the trips? All icing on an already tasty cake. Yummy, but superfluous.

Kathie Lee? You don’t know what you’re missing.



Walk Now For Autism Update

Saturday was the Cincinnati Walk Now For Autism event, and after raising $345 in just three weeks, we got up at dawn and made the drive down to the Cincinnati Zoo.

So how was the walk? In a word: wet.

The skies threw water at us the entire drive down. When we got to the zoo, there was a brief respite, and we hoped the rain would be over with, as weathermen had forecasted. (Note: never trust the weatherman.) We were running a little later than I planned, so with the girls in the stroller, we hurried to the registration desk. It’s been a long time since I’ve been to the Cincinnati Zoo. I forgot just how many hills there were. My legs still ache from speed walking up and down those steep hills, and I wasn’t even the one pushing the double stroller. I think I have shin splints now. Ouch.

I was a little disappointed with the event itself. When I went to check-in, I was told that there were no more t-shirts. Period. All sizes were gone, even child sizes. I reminded them that I was pre-registered, but that didn’t matter. Apparently they didn’t think to set aside t-shirts for those who had pre-registered. Poor planning.

I quickly found Amy and Tela in the crowd, and we then waited to find out what was happening next while introducing our children to each other.

Despite the gray weather, there were thousands of people standing around registration, with little organization. At some point, someone started talking with a microphone, but with a crowd of this size, we couldn’t hear a thing. Or see the person talking. The rain then started up again, and we sought shelter under a pop-up tent. The mass of people started moving up the hill, and we guessed that the walk had officially started.

We waited until the majority of people were up the hill, not wanting to walk shoulder-to-shoulder with everyone else. We were also hoping the rain would slow down a little. It didn’t, so we gave up, pulled up all our hoods, and started the walk up the hill.

Mira never smiles, except when she’s soaking wet?

While it wasn’t the event I had planned on going to, it was still fun to meet Amy and Tela. And Cordy and Mira had fun looking at the animals as we walked around the zoo. I wish the organizers had been better, well, organized. No one could plan for the weather, but they could have handled t-shirt distribution and directions better.

Despite the rain, we enjoyed ourselves, and I’m still happy we raised as much as we did for autism research and education. I’ve already signed up for the Columbus walk in October, and hope to raise even more money between now and then.

Thank you to those who donated!

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PS – If you’re a new mom, or know a new mom, be sure to check out my review of The Rookie Mom’s Handbook, written by the two amazing ladies behind the Rookie Moms blog.



It’s Time For A Shower!

Three lovely ladies I know are just weeks away from holding new babies in their arms for the second time. So of course you know their friends had to get together for a surprise virtual shower! Forget that nonsense that a second pregnancy doesn’t get a shower – why should having a second child be any different from the first?

OK, well, it is different.

It’s been nearly a year since my second child emerged and taught me that just because two children are from the same genetic stock doesn’t mean they’ll be anything alike. Both were colicky (sorry, you don’t necessarily get an easy one if the first was difficult), but the similarities end there. Cordy would laugh at anything. Mira is dead serious. Cordy was slow learning physical skills. Mira is close to walking and already a master escape artist. As we see Mira’s personality develop, we’re amazed at just how different these two children are.

I’d like to say the second is easier, but well, it is and it isn’t.

I remember those weeks before she was born (especially that week after my due date when all I could think about was when she would arrive), and how I worried about if I was ruining a good thing by having a second baby. I was scared that Cordy would hate me forever, that she would be forever resentful of losing out on some of my attention, that I would never find enough time and love for two children, and that any chance of having a moment to myself would forever be gone.

If you read that and started to hyperventilate, take a deep breath. While I feared all of that, it didn’t turn out that way. Cordy doesn’t hate me, and while it took her a few months to get used to Mira, she now loves her. Just this afternoon, while on the way to the zoo, we heard Cordy in the backseat saying, “Give me your hand, Mira. I want to hold your hand.” They play together, and while Cordy is sometimes a little too rough with Mira, she never tries to intentionally hurt her.

And I do still have time to myself. I’ll admit that time management is even more important, and I don’t have as much free time, but I still get moments to myself. The key is to remember to ask for help. I think Aaron and I get even more date nights now that Mira is here – maybe our families think that we need more time away since we have two kids now? I’m happy to accept the help!

As for finding enough time and love for two children – this is the easiest part. You’ll feel overwhelmed at times, you’ll dislike each of your children occasionally, but you really do have enough love for two. I’m not going to lie – the race for which one I like more changes by the minute, but I can’t imagine life without either of them.

Finally, if someone tells you that going from one to two children is harder than going from none to one, don’t let that scare you. It’s different, but I wouldn’t say harder. Some days they’ll both be crying at the same time, and you will want to grab the keys, leave them in the house, and drive far, far away without looking back. But other days the older one will entertain her little sibling, giving you time to sip a cup of coffee and read a few blogs, and the baby will laugh at some silly thing your toddler did, and suddenly you’ll feel like everything in your life is perfect and the heavens are smiling down on you.

Of course, I’m not quite a year into this new game, meaning I don’t have any insight into the sibling squabbles of the future, so I’ll put it to all of you: any advice for our shower-ees for dealing with two children?



Haiku Friday: Weekend Plans

A busy weekend
First, a walk for charity
in Cincinnati

Next, we come back to
Columbus to see friends in
renaissance costumes

Then on Sunday a
trip to the zoo. So what are
your plans this weekend?

(PS – This is the
last day to enter to win
a SanDisk flash drive)

(PPS – I also
have a new book review up:
Were You Raised By Wolves?)

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